finding the ending

i wrote, today.

not on paper or on the computer. nothing so real, yet. it was in my head - where the real writing happens. where the hard part happens. i still have a lot of blurry edges that won't give way to focus; but Maggie becomes more real. and i feel sorry for her mother.

i still haven't found my ending. that's how it works, though. you don't figure out the ending, you don't come up with it. it's already out there (or i guess i should say in there; in my head), complete and TRUE. i just have to find it.

but it feels good to come back to this.

after listening to the relief society broadcast, i felt *eager* to really get to it. i think it was the part when Pres. Uchtdorf told us to ignore the critics (even ourselves) and to not fear failure. that it is our divine birthright to create.

that felt true to me. he was so right - we do feel the most joy when we are creating or when we are being compassionate.

things i love to create:

stories
well rounded and (admittedly) showy meals
homemade bread
games to play with 10 month olds
impromptu songs
interesting and fresh outfits out of the old closet contents
homemade cards
comfort
reasons to get out of the house
smoothies
parties/gatherings
drawings
beaded jewelry
scarves
lists ;)
friendships