Emerging

Mm, boy. It feels good to be done.

I would say it’s like coming out of a fog – except that I love the fog, so when I come out of it I usually turn around and go back in. It’s more like a really good stretch after an intense workout, where you feel it deep, and afterward your whole body tingles with tiny thank-you’s. Or like when you walk outside after being indoors for too long, and you’re surprised by a crisp autumn breeze that lifts your hair and pulls its invigorating fingers through it (like when your mom used to play with your hair) and you step out into the world believing once again that it is full of wonders for your discovery. Yeah, it’s like that.

So the project consumed me, and so I emerged victorious.

There is a swagger in my step, a jaunt to my gait, a skip in my hop.

BUT The world didn’t exactly stay the way I left it when I dived into the deep end of this project. It’s funny how when you take yourself out of the equation, the things that you are responsible for tend to not get on without you.

• My house is a mess.
• My laundry is at a crux.
• My husband has no white shirts for church.
• We’re out of bread (which I make) and many of our staple foods (which I make a weekly run to the grocery store for).

So, basically, my poor son and husband are dirty and starving.

This is NOT to say that Bill didn’t pick up some major slack while I was holed up in the office. He ran major loads of dishes and fed our baby tortillas filled with black beans.

Not to mention being Sherriff Wyatt’s trusty horse (The Fish did not feel neglected last week, thanks to my sweet man).

I love them.

I told Bill that I was sorry for being so absent over the last week (not to mention a little bit horrible to live with. No sleep + stress = unpleasant Stepper. I’m working on it), and that I was BACK and ready to be his darling wife again. I felt so terrible I cried in his arms.

And do you know what he said?

That I could make it up to him with a batch of his favorite chocolate chip cookies, and a kiss.

Isn’t he the greatest?